As an incentive to keep within that time frame, we were each given four or so tickets at the beginning of the week. If you felt strongly about a story and wanted to keep going after the polite tap on the table (or awkward gong of a half-full aluminum water bottle), then you could rip up one of your tickets and keep going. But on Friday there were drawings for wonderful prizes, and your tickets were your chance to win.
Three minutes can feel like a long time if you're doing a presentation in front of a class. But if you're speaking about a story and trying to articulate what did and didn't work for you as a reader, then three minutes is never enough time.
Our first full-story critiques happened in week two. The first day of workshop I tried to cram in as much information as I could during my 3 minutes. I had a list of bullet points and I rattled them off, not really going into detail on any one point. I also wanted to appear competent to my classmates and instructor, and I think this often happens to writers during the first critique session at any workshop.
The critique room at Clarion West 2011 |
Then it was my turn. My story was ripped apart. Not unkindly. Not without caring words for what was working in the story. And in many ways the critique I received during that first round of stories propelled me to try my hardest during each submission cycle at the workshop.
But after the crit session had ended that day I didn't go to lunch with my classmates. I felt bombarded with feedback. I escaped to my room and stayed there for an hour in the quiet. During that time I thought about what was important to me as a writer. Which feedback had been most useful.
It wasn't the laundry list of things to fix. It was the moments when a classmate took the time to explore an area or two of my story, to really dig in deep. Or when they responded to an idea brought up earlier in the critique session. During these types of critiques my classmates usually spoke more slowly. Without the pre-listed bullet points, the critiques were more conversational. They reached me in a way that a list of Dittos couldn't.
These types of critiques worked for me because I felt connected to my classmates. Oddly, I was able to separate my work from my self more easily when I felt like my classmate addressed me directly. Maybe because the sense of them wanting to help me succeed came through more clearly. Or maybe the whole experience just felt less overwhelming.
So I decided to do something different with my responses. I still only had a few minutes for each critique, but each time I sacrificed a few of those precious moments to make a connection with the person whose story I was critiquing.
"Hey Mark."
"Hey Alisa."
"Hey Jei."
I think some people may have thought it was silly, but after a while it caught on and other people started doing it, too. And in the end my critiques were the better for this moment of pause, of connection.
Jenni, it is so like you to find ways to connect with people, even at the expense of things others might find important. It's also entirely in character that you really thought about your own practice and analyzed what others did that meant something to you. I love seeing that kind of introspection! And I think this allows you to explore who you are as a writer much more deeply.
ReplyDeleteThank you, geekly one! :) Your kind words mean a lot to me.
DeleteHey Jenni. :-)
ReplyDeleteSpeaking for myself, I think it felt awkward to talk directly to each other during crits that first (2nd) week. I didn't know everyone's workshop history and critique tolerance. Didn't want my criticisms to come across as a personal attack -- felt better to keep it neutral. By week 4 or so, we all had a pretty good sense of each other, and knew how to say what was necessary --and to hear it.
Hey Alisa!
DeleteGood point! As the workshop progressed our critique styles evolved. Those last few weeks I feel like we were in the critique zone - such a great experience! If we could only do it again...
Oh, I so remember your intros. I didn't think they were silly at all. Loved them. "Hi, Jenni!"
ReplyDeleteHi Mark! Glad they were not too silly! Sometimes it is hard to tell from the inside looking out. :)
DeleteIn addition to the time you took to address each of us, I think the time you took to present an appealing written critique helped, too. At least, it got a smile and some warm fuzzies when the rest of the day revolved around getting a story dissected.
ReplyDeleteAhhh! The written critiques! I had almost forgotten about those. :) Although by the end I feel like my written critiques had gone the way of the bullet list. :)
DeleteWhat Jenni didn't mention is that she also personalized her hardcopy crits with adorable stamps, which must've taken up some prime real estate in her luggage to bring (esp. for the sake of brightening some then-strangers' day!) :3
ReplyDeletePersonal touches like those definitely contributed to the joy of workshop ^_^
Thanks Jei! I'm glad the stamps added a little to the wonderful CW atmosphere. :) My collection continues to grow! I have moved them to an even bigger box!! Now I just need an excuse to use them more often. :)
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